So I Stopped Wearing Spanx...

If you know me, then you know that I have a love affair with Spanx. More specifically the Higher Power line of Spanx. Real talk, those shits are magical -- they hold in back fat, belly jiggle, and extra thigh meat at the same damn time. Why wouldn't a girl enjoy those? I've been wearing them for 7 years now religiously. In my early days of Spanxdom I even wore them when I worked out. Don't judge me. Now I'm not the avid wearer who forsakes underwear because technically they can be worn as such...the open gusset in the crotch region allows for those trips to the bathroom for #1s without ever having to pull those things down. Truthfully, the thought of using the peehole in those things gives me anxiety like no other. I'm unbelievably clumsy in the moments when I need to be the least clumsy. I don't even want to imagine what would happen if I tried to make some magic happen through that gusset.

But I digress. I went an entire Christmas break without wearing Spanx, and didn't really think twice about it. I may have thrown them on early during break when going out with the hubby, but I honestly don't recall. Thought about putting them on for church, but after fighting to get my second leg in and realizing that I hadn't done all of this work just to get clothes on during my entire Christmas break, I said forget it and tossed them aside, pulled on my clothes and headed out the door.

Not going to lie, I think I had a bit of anxiety at first, being separated from what has been my security blanket for the past 7 years. I really had to take a deep breath and tell myself that it was going to be okay. While walking with my hubby to get seats for church, I stated, "I'm not wearing Spanx." His response questioned whether this was declaration moving forward or just a statement for Sunday. At the time, I told him it was just for Sunday, but as I began to think about it, I realized that I could do it for longer. I have really let my Spanx be my crutch for the past 7 years, letting my weight fluctuate during that time, not thinking much about it when I purchased new Spanx in a size larger or smaller than the previous pair.

I've made the decision to not wear Spanx moving forward, at least not in the usual fashion. I think I may purchase a slip or two and foundations for whenever I wear dresses (but this doesn't happen often, and probably won't happen during the winter), but it won't be an every day thing anymore. This means a lot less clothing that holds onto my belly and the possible shopping spree for more button ups and sweaters. It definitely means that I'll be in the gym, because I have to get this jiggle off of me, once and for all. I started working out again over break, and it felt good. I'm just going to have to work pretty damn hard. It took a long time for me to get to this point, it's going to take some time for me to get smaller.